Remember Me?!

Well I'm back.
So it's been a while and a lot has happened.
Good: I past my last set of classes. Now I just have 2 retakes and I'll be on to my extern :)
I'm still so very much happily in love with my husband. He is the best guy for me hands down. I know with out a doubt no matter how bad things get he will always be here for me. The way he cares about me and worries about my well being is unlike anyone else I've had in my life and I'm so glad we are married. I really hope that i make him as happy as he makes me.
Alright the bad: some people know and some had no idea I was even pregnant but last Monday I miscarried again. This is so heartbreaking to me because I really truly want to have kids with Jesse maybe more than I want anything else. I know he will make the best dad and I want to give him that. I'm really angry that it happened because I see so many people that don't want their kids or that just shouldn't have kids popping them out like its nothing and here we are happy and in love wanting our baby and ready to step up and be the best parents and it's just taken away. I do believe that God is telling us it isn't our time yet but why get our hopes up just to smash the dream? I'm not angry with God I just don't understand it. We will be trying again after a while. Not sure exactly when but once we get more settled and most likely when things slow down for me with work and school. And hopefully than it'll be our time. I'm staying positive and focusing on Jesse and I. We've only been married a month so with this mishap we will have more time to focus on each other before we become parents. With the bad there is good if you look for it. So I'm choosing to find the good.
I know people want to talk about it and want to make sure were doing okay and I am grateful and thankful to you guys but I'm just not one to want to talk about it. Anything I have to say about it I've talked to Jesse about and honestly not to be rude or what not he's the only one I need to share with so I choose to do that. He is my comfort and he's the one that understands when I tell him things others might not. Another reason I have fallen more in love with him.
Alright I'm done for now. Have a good night.