I'm still alive.

I haven't blogged in awhile but big things are happening ;) but they are secrets still so we can't talk about them yet but soon. We are happier than ever and I am getting happier by the day with him :)
Today is Christmas Eve and Jazines birthday. It's also the day I fly to spend Christmas with Jesse and his family which I can't wait for since I haven't seen him since Sunday. A week is a long time when you are used to seeing someone everyday. But I'm excited :) only 4 more hours and I'll finally be off thank gosh.
School is good. Started my last sequence last week :))) do glad for that.
Alright I'm tired and need to get through these last hours. :)
Merry Christmas people

School, Life, and What Not

So I'm in my second to last sequence in school and I'm way nervous about it. I've already failed 2 classes which is all that you are allowed to fail before you get kicked out. I.AM.STRESSED. To say the least. I can't believe I'm so close to 1. Finishing (kinda) and 2. Possibly failing out. I don't know what I will do if that happens to be honest. I think there will be a lot of solitude (besides certain people) but I'm thinking there will be no talking to a bunch of people until I figure out what I will do next. I'm very very bitter about failing one of my classes and if I do happen to fail out I will be fighting it because I did nothing wrong in one course but failed it because I missed a day in another course. That hasn't sat well with me since that happened and I will be talking to someone about that. Anyways. I'll be giving up my weekend and sadly Jesses' weekend as well so I can study my life away to pass the test and class I'm struggling in. Which is all due to failing 1 test. FML for real.
Anyways I'm crossing my fingers, toes and any other body part that can be crossed and you should too.
Jesse and I are doing GREAT!! I'm so happy when I'm with him. I just met his parents they are awesome and his mom and uncle are really funny. I'm glad I got to meet them I can't wait to see them for Christmas. :)
I found out some terrible news today that hurts my heart and brain to think about. I will never understand why this happens and I seriously want to gouge out his eyes and anyone else's that is able to do this without a second thought! I know everything will work out I'm just worried about the outcome.
Alright, I'm tired and I need to get back to studying.
Good night my lovelies.